Patiently ? Waiting.....

It has been another long while since I blogged. It has been so long, in fact, that I forgot my username:) I had a friend remind me of my username (my one and only follower) and I was able to log back in. I am now 9 months pregnant, awaiting my second child birth. He is yet to be named, but he is very much eagerly anticipated!!
These 9 months have been a challenge of NEW! New location of my job, relocation of my fiance and step-son to be with us, my first born started a new school, and of course the forming of our third child. This has been a year of change and flexibility that has not always been easy. However, that being said, I would not change any of it.
Since I have never 'co-parented', raising my first born by myself for 10 years, the last 9 months with my fiance and our two boys have been preparation for what is to come. Although we do not agree on all aspects of life and how to raise our children, what I hope, is that they will grow to see two people working together for their good.
Now, if only we can work together long enough to agree on a name for our new blessing before he arrives. We have 1-2 weeks tops!

Baby Thoughts

Being pregnant again is reminding me so much of my last pregnancy. My 'baby' is now turning 10 in 16 days. I cannot believe the time has gone so fast. As my body is changing, growing, swelling, and straining to make room for the new little one, I am trying to savor this process. As I know too well, another 10 years may go by in the blink of an eye.
Being a mom is one of the best, hardest, most rewarding, challenging, and fun jobs I have ever had. As my home, heart, and body expand to include a new baby, and a step son, I realize what my grandmother said was true. When I asked her if you ever love your other children as much as your first, she said your heart just grows and you love them all more then you could ever imagine loving anyone.
I am so excited to welcome and enjoy my new family:)

Change

Did you ever feel like you just couldn't be stretched anymore then you already are at this current moment? It is possible! I have felt like this many times before in my life. Usually, I feel this way when the world is trying to tell me something or give me more blessings, or nudge me to change in some way. I especially feel like this when I am contemplating all the changes in my life in the last year and all the changes that will come in the next year.
The times in my life that I have felt this the most are in regards to motherhood. Just when I think...I cannot give anymore. I cannot love more than I already do. I cannot possibly fit more into the day. I cannot possibly do more then I am doing. My body cannot bear anymore change...something gives and I can! A small voice whispers, "Don't worry! You may not be able to do it on your own, but with me, we can do it together!" I have always called this voice God. It is with this faith, that I can continue. Through meditation and reflection, I can put one foot in front of the other, even when I don't feel like it. I can see things from a different perspective.
Right now, I was walking up the stairs after a long tiring day (we squeezed a great deal of fun in there too!). I thought, come on legs, you can make it....literally, two more steps. So it is here, from my bed, that I am sitting and thinking about today and reflecting on my life. It is wonderful! I am truly happy. I am excited to see what comes. At times, I am exhausted and overwhelmed, but it is in a good way. I am not sure if this makes any sense, but these are my thoughts:)
Blessings!

To blog or not to blog....

Well, I haven't blogged in over a year. It has been a busy year, which has probably kept me from it. I also don't know how comfy I am 'journaling' on the internet. I say journaling, because I only have one follower. So, really, it is like writing for myself:) At the gentle nudging of a friend, I am back.
This year has had many changes. This is probably another reason I haven't blogged. So much going on, leaves me so many thoughts in my mind, I don't know where to begin. I also didn't want to blog TOO much. When I am overwhelmed, I tend to have no filter. Ha!
Personally, the last year of my life has reconnected me to an old flame/friend which started a long distance romance. I am happy to say, that we are now engaged, blending lives, and creating a new one...yup! We are pregnant.
Professionally, my job was changing. The program where I taught was downsizing. I didn't know if I would be with them in their new capacity or if I would suddenly, after 7 years, have a new grade to teach. After waiting and waiting, I found out I would still be in the same age group.....EXHALE! Even this has brought on new and different challenges.
As each new change happens: new beginnings, endings, fresh starts, prospects, I am trying to keep an open mind. Possibilities are endless when you just stay open and flexible. I know that each new start will bring new joys. Each ending will bring a close to a chapter so new ones can form. Prospects that I can only imagine will be presented, if only I can remain open to them. If I close myself off to them, I may miss a great many blessings.
BLESSINGS? I AM READY! BRING 'EM ON!

Things that make you go hmm....

I always marvel at the way life unfolds. I could never have guessed some of the highs (or lows) that have happened in my life. I try to enjoy each day, because I put value in the fact that tomorrow isn't promised. Everyday, I am thankful for waking up, for having my family and friends surround me, and yes, even for some of the crappy things that have happened to me. I know that each event in life happens for a reason. We just might not see the reason right away.
No matter what my future holds, I look forward to what life has in store and try to cherish each moment. I am not ashamed of my past. It has made me who I am today. If I can pass some of the life lessons that I have learned on to my son and help him learn from my past, I will feel like I conquered the world. I know he will have his own trials and tribulations, but I pray that they are light and don't last long.
For those who read this, blessings to you and yours, may you get out of life, what you put in!
Salud mi vida!

Me Time

Well, today is a new day! I am enjoying the solitude of the morning. Aidan slept over at a friends, so it is just Sokka and me lounging around. I am trying to reflect on these last few weeks, to see where my path in life is leading and to what areas of my life I can improve. It seems appropriate during this Lenten time, while preparing to acknowledge the sacrifice God's Son made for me, I am also preparing for ways to propel my life forward!
As a mother, I am trying to enjoy my son more. I know that tomorrow isn't promised, but by God's grace, I will enjoy each day we have together. These are the times I will cherish as he grows. Sledding yesterday with him alone was thrilling for me, as we were exploring and having fun together. Then we went back with his friend a little while later and there were new and exciting things to watch. Him and his friend became more daring in the tricks they tried. They used trial and error to see how building a jump would or would not work. After on hour, I was exhausted. So, I sat back and watched as they tirelessly continued playing, laughing, and enjoying their snow day!
As a daughter and friend, I am trying to make wise choices, when to react and when to let go. I am a model to my son of how to treat a parent. I try to keep that in mind when I want to react inappropriately or harshly towards my parents. Unhealthy friends, fall by the wayside and strong friendships, are being fortified. May each day, bring support and encouragement to and from them.
It is truly my hope that while reflecting on my life, I am helping to correct past errs and to forage new and glorious memories to recall in my future:)

SNOOOOWWWWW!

I woke up refreshed after a great girls night out at The Melting Pot. I couldn't decide what to do first! After deciding on coffee making as a first priority, everything else fell into place. I took the dog out and then we (the dog and I) settled in for a good morning read. It was there on the couch that I thought how much I love snow. It slows everyone down, at least for a little while. This is just another reason why I love it!
So, for about an hour, I had some peace and quiet, which is rare. Then my son pounds down the steps to say good morning with his usual cat-like snuggle on my lap. Now, the next question of the day is, stay in pajamas or get dressed?
Hmmmm.......