Did you ever feel like you just couldn't be stretched anymore then you already are at this current moment? It is possible! I have felt like this many times before in my life. Usually, I feel this way when the world is trying to tell me something or give me more blessings, or nudge me to change in some way. I especially feel like this when I am contemplating all the changes in my life in the last year and all the changes that will come in the next year.
The times in my life that I have felt this the most are in regards to motherhood. Just when I think...I cannot give anymore. I cannot love more than I already do. I cannot possibly fit more into the day. I cannot possibly do more then I am doing. My body cannot bear anymore change...something gives and I can! A small voice whispers, "Don't worry! You may not be able to do it on your own, but with me, we can do it together!" I have always called this voice God. It is with this faith, that I can continue. Through meditation and reflection, I can put one foot in front of the other, even when I don't feel like it. I can see things from a different perspective.
Right now, I was walking up the stairs after a long tiring day (we squeezed a great deal of fun in there too!). I thought, come on legs, you can make it....literally, two more steps. So it is here, from my bed, that I am sitting and thinking about today and reflecting on my life. It is wonderful! I am truly happy. I am excited to see what comes. At times, I am exhausted and overwhelmed, but it is in a good way. I am not sure if this makes any sense, but these are my thoughts:)
Blessings!
Monday, September 26, 2011
Friday, September 9, 2011
To blog or not to blog....
Well, I haven't blogged in over a year. It has been a busy year, which has probably kept me from it. I also don't know how comfy I am 'journaling' on the internet. I say journaling, because I only have one follower. So, really, it is like writing for myself:) At the gentle nudging of a friend, I am back.
This year has had many changes. This is probably another reason I haven't blogged. So much going on, leaves me so many thoughts in my mind, I don't know where to begin. I also didn't want to blog TOO much. When I am overwhelmed, I tend to have no filter. Ha!
Personally, the last year of my life has reconnected me to an old flame/friend which started a long distance romance. I am happy to say, that we are now engaged, blending lives, and creating a new one...yup! We are pregnant.
Professionally, my job was changing. The program where I taught was downsizing. I didn't know if I would be with them in their new capacity or if I would suddenly, after 7 years, have a new grade to teach. After waiting and waiting, I found out I would still be in the same age group.....EXHALE! Even this has brought on new and different challenges.
As each new change happens: new beginnings, endings, fresh starts, prospects, I am trying to keep an open mind. Possibilities are endless when you just stay open and flexible. I know that each new start will bring new joys. Each ending will bring a close to a chapter so new ones can form. Prospects that I can only imagine will be presented, if only I can remain open to them. If I close myself off to them, I may miss a great many blessings.
BLESSINGS? I AM READY! BRING 'EM ON!
This year has had many changes. This is probably another reason I haven't blogged. So much going on, leaves me so many thoughts in my mind, I don't know where to begin. I also didn't want to blog TOO much. When I am overwhelmed, I tend to have no filter. Ha!
Personally, the last year of my life has reconnected me to an old flame/friend which started a long distance romance. I am happy to say, that we are now engaged, blending lives, and creating a new one...yup! We are pregnant.
Professionally, my job was changing. The program where I taught was downsizing. I didn't know if I would be with them in their new capacity or if I would suddenly, after 7 years, have a new grade to teach. After waiting and waiting, I found out I would still be in the same age group.....EXHALE! Even this has brought on new and different challenges.
As each new change happens: new beginnings, endings, fresh starts, prospects, I am trying to keep an open mind. Possibilities are endless when you just stay open and flexible. I know that each new start will bring new joys. Each ending will bring a close to a chapter so new ones can form. Prospects that I can only imagine will be presented, if only I can remain open to them. If I close myself off to them, I may miss a great many blessings.
BLESSINGS? I AM READY! BRING 'EM ON!
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